I just finished my last full day of chemo....have the 5FU pump until Monday (hooked through my port in my chest)....then I am DONE! Praise the Lord! My poor body is scarred, has foreign objects in it, and has dwindled down to 103 pounds. But...I am a fighter and I hope that people have been encouraged by this road I have traveled down. I am so thankful for being raised by the parents I have and being part of a huge loving and supportive family. I don't know if I would be as strong without them!
My Mama mailed me a card the other day and I read it every day. It says:
" You have what it takes! Adversity can bring out the best in people and that's certainly true of you! Your courage is an inspiration!"
"To my precious Jayme,
Honey, first off-I love you! You continue to amaze me with your courage and faith. You are one of the strongest women I have ever had in my life.....I've seen you fall several times when life has knocked you down...you always take it in your heart and figure out a way to rise above and get through it. I am so proud of you, to see your amazing faith has been uplifting to my own faith. When I've been so scared that I could barely breathe...there you are comforting me. When I've seen you feel so bad, you could always see my worry and would tell me 'Mama it's gonna be ok!'. Because of you (my blessing and true gift from God) I have gotten to witness true courage and true faith in Jesus! You have made me stronger in my own walk with the Lord! There's no way I can ever tell you how much I love you...just like you can't put into words the way you feel about your precious little boys! I love you seems so weak...but I do! 'as long as I'm living my baby you'll be!'. I pray for God to bless you with good health and happiness from this day forward! So many things in this old world may make you have doubt...but you never have to doubt God's love for you or mine! I love you! Mama"
This is how I was raised! I have been loved unconditionally my entire life and I thank God for the love I have. My Mama says I'm her gift from God, but truly she is my gift from Him!
To all of you that have been praying I thank you from the bottom of my heart! I am grateful and humbled to have the people in my life that I do!
I expect to see all of you at my celebration party...when it happens! And I also encourage each of you to be part of Relay for Life! You never really understand what a difference studies and research have on hinge....but I am here to tell you....without the canr research, I wouldn't be where I am! I have handled this like a fighter! I am proud of myself! I DID IT! The tears are flowing as I type this.....to try to explain to someone that's never been throughh it....there are no words to describe the brutality it is to your body! I pray that none of you will ever be faced with this! It's by far the hardest thing I have ever done. I'm gonna be honest.....I actually thought about opting out...I even talked to the doctor! Besides the fact that my family would kill me if I did....I'm a fighter and I don't quit! I just held my head up high and walked into the Oncology Center and sat there as they put that poison into my body again! I sat and I prayed for the other people in there and I thanked God for allowing me to go through this so I could be an example of faith and endurance to other people. If my story helps just one person, it would be worth it.
In a couple of months I will have a CT scan done.....then they will tell me that my cancer is gone and I am in remission! Gotta stay positive people! Again, I am so thankful for you all and still would love to meet the people that are reading my blog!!!!!!
Love and prayers to you all!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Wow....It's almost over!
I have been meaning to get on here and update my blog for a while....but I've had a rough time lately. I guess the more chemo you do it builds up in your system and it takes longer to feel better....which, when I thought about it, makes a lot of sense....just never had to think about it until now! :)
I finished my 3rd round of chemo....only 1 more left! Radiation is over now too! I don't have a another dr appt until the 19th and am supposed to start my final round of chemo on the 20th. I am so thankful for the break...I was seriously considering opting out of the last chemo...that's how bad I have felt. Chemo is a very rotten and brutal thing to go through, but it's not as bad as you see on T.V. When I first started I was terrified that I was going to be bed ridden for months and sick all the time....don't get me wrong, there are days that I
just lay around a feel rotten and I only get sick once I am finished with the round of chemo. Sounds crazy...you'd think you'd be sick during....I'm just really tired during and have LOTS of hot flashes. The hot flashes are HORRIBLE!!! It's probably a combination of the hysterectomy and the chemo. I am just so ready for all of this to be OVER! There is so much sickness going around right now....so many people have cancer. I am so thankful that mine isn't worse than it is and they are telling me that I am going to be ok. I can't imagine only prolonging my life. I pray every day for the people and families that are affected by cancer.
I have been thinking about Relay for Life this year....I'm excited to go and wear my tshirt and walk with PRIDE. I am proud of myself for making it through this...well, almost. I really want to have a celebration when I'm done....everyone wearing their shirts!!!! What great pictures that would be!
Oh....by the way....I felt great during Christmas and New Year's....thank you all for the things you have done for me and my family. Meals, gifts, donations, phone calls, text messages, cards....most importantly the prayers.....it all has meant so very much to me and I will never be able to express the thanks and appreciation I have in my heart for you all. God certainly has a way of making things a little brighter when you just rely on Him. I am so blessed!!!!
Love to you all!!!
I finished my 3rd round of chemo....only 1 more left! Radiation is over now too! I don't have a another dr appt until the 19th and am supposed to start my final round of chemo on the 20th. I am so thankful for the break...I was seriously considering opting out of the last chemo...that's how bad I have felt. Chemo is a very rotten and brutal thing to go through, but it's not as bad as you see on T.V. When I first started I was terrified that I was going to be bed ridden for months and sick all the time....don't get me wrong, there are days that I
just lay around a feel rotten and I only get sick once I am finished with the round of chemo. Sounds crazy...you'd think you'd be sick during....I'm just really tired during and have LOTS of hot flashes. The hot flashes are HORRIBLE!!! It's probably a combination of the hysterectomy and the chemo. I am just so ready for all of this to be OVER! There is so much sickness going around right now....so many people have cancer. I am so thankful that mine isn't worse than it is and they are telling me that I am going to be ok. I can't imagine only prolonging my life. I pray every day for the people and families that are affected by cancer.
I have been thinking about Relay for Life this year....I'm excited to go and wear my tshirt and walk with PRIDE. I am proud of myself for making it through this...well, almost. I really want to have a celebration when I'm done....everyone wearing their shirts!!!! What great pictures that would be!
Oh....by the way....I felt great during Christmas and New Year's....thank you all for the things you have done for me and my family. Meals, gifts, donations, phone calls, text messages, cards....most importantly the prayers.....it all has meant so very much to me and I will never be able to express the thanks and appreciation I have in my heart for you all. God certainly has a way of making things a little brighter when you just rely on Him. I am so blessed!!!!
Love to you all!!!
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