Relaxing Weekend!!!

I didn't get on my computer at all this weekend...I rested!!! I am feeling much better today. Even went to church yesterday (in sweats, but I went)!!! I'm not really liking being alone right now...my mind tends to wander around all the "what ifs". What if I die? What will happen to my boys? What about my parents, sisters and husband??? I think it's only normal to think about stuff like that...but as soon as a thought like the goes through my head. I bow my head and pray for God to give me his peace! I am claiming life and I know there are power in your words and thoughts! It really doesn't matter what you're going through...it may not be cancer, but EVERYONE is fighting some sort of battle! Just got to keep your thoughts positive!

Well...Jessica is going to come over today and cut my hair really short. Then, I will shave it when it starts to fall out. *sigh* This still all feels so surreal....but you know in church yesterday, they sang a song about letting your light shine. I'm not going to go into hiding when my head is bald...I am GOING TO LET MY LIGHT SHINE!!! I could curl up in bed (and sometimes I feel like it), but how would God be able to shine through me if I'm covered with covers and never leave the house? I want to be an example of faith, love and courage! That is my prayer!!! I do get tired of talking about it sometimes, but then other times I can't talk about it enough....I guess it just needs to come out sometimes! :)

I am extremely nervous about starting the treatment....just ready to get started and see how my body is going to handle it! 7 more days people!!!! 7 more days!!! :) I guess it's kinda like having a baby...you prepare yourself for 9 months to have a baby, but when it comes down to it....you're not ready, it's just something that's going to happen whether you want it to or not! :)I just pray that I handle the treatment great so my family will still be able to enjoy the holidays.

I didn't realize just how many people were going to be reading my blog...it's so crazy how many people are behind me and being supportive! I LOVE IT!!!

Love to you all!