Another Day.....Another Blog

Hi!  I hope everyone is doing awesome today!!!  I have been doing great...I love these good days! :) 

So....my last blog I stated that people proving themselves is different than just the words they say (as far as being there for you)....I just want to throw this out there.  I wasn't talking about anyone not being there for me....I was mainly giving my cousin Jessica a little shout out for everything that she has done for me.  My best friend texted me and said she was in tears because she felt like she hasn't been there for me like she should.  BUT.....what I told her is that there is really nothing anyone can do and what I do need is words of encouragement and prayers and that is something I KNOW without a doubt that she is doing for me.  I appreciate each and every one of you that has reached out to me....whether it be a little fb message or post on my page, a card, a text, a gift, food, prayers.....whatever it is that you have done...I appreciate it with all of my heart.  My Mama and I were talking earlier and she said, "Jayme this has really taught me to reach out to people, even if we don't really know them or even if they aren't in our close circle...people are reaching out to you and it has taught me to not get so busy that I forget to do the same for other people."  All of this hasn't just been a lesson for me, but I know other people are learning lessons too....especially my family!  We are all dumbfounded at the outpouring of love to us right now.  It gets me all teary eyed!!!!!  OK...OK....enough sappy stuff....sometimes I feel like if I start crying, it will be days before I stop.  :) 

Y'all I really don't feel like I'm dong anything special by blogging or in the way I'm handling this....but obviously everyone else thinks I am.  People are wanting to meet me...people are sending me messages that I don't even know....it's amazing how God is using me and my situation to reach people that I normally would never have any contact with what-so-ever!  I've prayed for God to use me in mighty ways and recently I have prayed for God to show me how to be a witness to others....I kinda wish He had shown me without the whole cancer thing, but I am learning that we just use what we have and that's good enough for God.  I don't have any special talents....I can't sing....I can't dance....I am not good with public speaking....but what do I have?  I have cancer and I have a story, so as long as I tell my story and praise God through this...I am being a witness, right?  I think so!  :) 

So...I guess what I'm trying to say is....it doesn't matter if you are having a bad hair day or if your kids are getting on your nervers....what matters is your attitude!  Have an attitude of gratitude.  Smile at someone....you never know what they are going through!

One thing that I am struggling with is my weight right now.  As most of you know, I have always been very thin.  Now....I have been losing weight....which is NOT good for me.  I only weigh 110 now and everyone is trying to shovel food down my throat.  I'm not trying to lose weight....I lost most of it when I was in the hospital and then as soon as I came back they hook me up to chemo.  I am gotten my appetite back now...but I start my second round of chemo on Monday.  Chemo....is not fun at all....I would take radiation any day over chemo!  It makes you hurt all over, you can't taste food and then you're not hungry.  I just have to figure out how to not lose any more weight.  I am NOT looking forward to Monday to say the least.  I go on Friday to get my blood work done and meet with the doctor.  I am praying that the doctor will do something about my siatic nerve pain....this junk is for the birds.  I do NOT like complaining and I do NOT like hurting (who does?)....but seriously...it hurts! 

I have gotten so many special surprises lately and it makes me smile!  So....thank you all for my special surprises.  I've gotten teal sweat pants, a teal jacket, some books, candles, a scarf, a hat, lots and lots of cards.....all kinds of goodies.  God will bless you people for loving me the way that you have!  Y'all make my good days that much better and my bad days easier to deal with!  You will never understand how truely grateful I am.

Oh and by the way.....I have 40 followers on my blog and my blog has been view 2,052 times!!!  How awesome is that???  Little ol' Jayme has a fan club!  Whooot Whoooot!!!!  Go Jayme!  Hahahaha! 

"Blessed is the one who digs a well from which another may draw faith!"