Praise God for these good days.....I am loving them!!! Yesterday me and Mama went to The French Market and then to Rite Aide....probably not much to y'all, but it made me feel normal for a little bit. I am just so afraid that I'm going to get sick. I can't be around crowds of people right now and I'm not supposed to be hugging everyone, but when people see me....they wanna hug me! What am I supposed to do? I'm a huggy person! :) I think it's funny when people see me and say "well, you look good!" What do they expect me to look like? I guess when you have cancer there's a certain "look" you're supposed to have. hahahahahaha! My hair hasn't started falling out yet and the more I think about it falling out....it bothers me a little. It hasn't bothered me at all until the past couple of days, but it could be worse...it's just hair, right?
We are going to put up the Christmas tree at Mama and Daddy's tonight. This is going to be fun!!! I love Christmas time, but to be honest....this year is kinda yucky! I am just so thankful that I will be starting my second round of chemo Monday and then will be on the 2 week break during Christmas. I am really tired of all of this....I just can't think about it sometimes. I am so ready for my life to get back to normal. I am almost half way done though, so I am thankful for that.
You know....I've always donated things to people and I've done the thing where you buy Christmas presents for other people...I never thought in a million years that I would be on the receiving end of it. It's quite humbling, but it also makes me so thankful to be surrounded by such loving people that care about my boys and my family. Thank God Barry and I had already started our Christmas shopping before all of this started. But....we only got started on Sam (he is 3) and Andrew (he is 9 months)....I had to get Joey's Christmas list before I could start on him. Joey is not really talking to me right now....as most of you know, Joey moved to North Carolina in August to live with his dad. He is feeling guilty for not being here right now....he is 11 and is just going through a bunch of stuff. Bless his little heart. Y'all be in prayer for him as well. BUT....I am kinda glad he's not here to see all this that I'm going through.....I miss him so much.
Anyway....gotta go feed my babies! Love to you all and thank you all for being there for me and praying for me. I appreciate you all so very much.
So thankful for your good says as well! I love seeing you smiling and feeling "normal" :-) I am praying this week won't be too bad for you...I know doing the chemo sucks, lol! Just keep taking one day at a time and stay positive!!! And, of you do lose your hair....so what!? It's just hair, it will grow back and you will be a beautiful, shining inspiration either way! I love you and am always only a phone call away!!
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