I received a card from someone that I don't know....she knows my cousin in Illionois and she sent me this beautiful card.
The Way to God:
If my days were untroubled and my heart always light,
Would I seek that fair land where there is no night?
If I never grew weary with the weight of my load,
would I seach for God's peace at the end of the road?
If I never knew sickness and never felt pain,
would I reach for a hand to help and sustain?
If I walked not with sorrow, and not lived with loss,
Would my soul seek sweet solace at the foot of the cross?
If all I desired was mine day by day,
Would I kneel before God and earnestly pray??
I ask myself this, and the answer is plain-
If my life were all pleasure and I never knew pain, I'd seek God less often and need Him much less,
For God's sought more often in times of distress
And NO ONE knows God or sees Him as plain as those who have met HIM on the pathway to pain!!!!
She then wrote me a letter telling that I am an inspiration to her....but no, you all who send me these messages and cards and letters...YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION!!! We serve an awesome God people!!!! I pray that you each have a wonderful Christmas holiday with your families and please know that you are all truly blessed beyond any circumstance you feel is holding you back. Our God has a reason as HE has such a great plan....just hold on tight and pray even harder because our little minds cannot come close to comprehending what He has in store for us. I love each and every one of you so much and look forwarding to hearing for you all!!! Love to you all!!!!
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Ahhhh.....LIFE IS AWESOME!!!!!
So....I know, it's been a while since I posted. Nothing too exciting has been going on....I'm just to dang lazy to get up and get on the computer. Last week, I ended up in the ER on Tuesday night....my upset stomach had me dehydrated and had me in a lot of pain. So....anyway, I'm good now. I've just been sleeping, trying to eat (LOST MORE WEIGHT....UGH.....I only weigh 107.9) BUT, they assure me that as soon as radiation is over that my stomach will get back to normal and I will be able to eat a full meal again...right now I'm eating basically like a 3 year old....my stomach just can't handle a lot.
I have been feeling like myself again the past few days and it feels great!!! I am actually excited about Christmas now...I wasn't too sure how I was going to make it through it with my boys. BUT, sometimes you meet people that bring things into prospective. I met a woman that has her chemo bag attached to her for 25 days....25 days people!!!!! I fuss about a week....she is also only on one type of chemo, so hers isn't as rough as mine, but still having to be attached to that stupid bag for that long can make you can insane. Please when you think about me....think about all of the other people that have cancer. You reallly can't tell that I have cancer....my hair has not started falling out at all...it's actually turning grey. Some of you have seen me out.....which I have to make myself get out in the public to make myself feel less isolated, but I think I've developed some sort of germ fobia. When I walk in somewhere and see a ton of people, I have to either walk back out or put my face in my jacket.....everywhere I look, it's like to air is green....ugh!!!! I start sweating and have to sit down. NOT COOL! Hugging people (which I am usually a hugger) makes me cringe. It's just the weirdest thing ever.
People have been so kind to us during this stormin our life and I am going to try to send out thank you cards. It's been a long rough road...we started all of the October 2010 (when I was diagnosed).
Love to you all!!! I will update again in a little bit....hopefully!!
I have been feeling like myself again the past few days and it feels great!!! I am actually excited about Christmas now...I wasn't too sure how I was going to make it through it with my boys. BUT, sometimes you meet people that bring things into prospective. I met a woman that has her chemo bag attached to her for 25 days....25 days people!!!!! I fuss about a week....she is also only on one type of chemo, so hers isn't as rough as mine, but still having to be attached to that stupid bag for that long can make you can insane. Please when you think about me....think about all of the other people that have cancer. You reallly can't tell that I have cancer....my hair has not started falling out at all...it's actually turning grey. Some of you have seen me out.....which I have to make myself get out in the public to make myself feel less isolated, but I think I've developed some sort of germ fobia. When I walk in somewhere and see a ton of people, I have to either walk back out or put my face in my jacket.....everywhere I look, it's like to air is green....ugh!!!! I start sweating and have to sit down. NOT COOL! Hugging people (which I am usually a hugger) makes me cringe. It's just the weirdest thing ever.
People have been so kind to us during this stormin our life and I am going to try to send out thank you cards. It's been a long rough road...we started all of the October 2010 (when I was diagnosed).
Love to you all!!! I will update again in a little bit....hopefully!!
Friday, December 9, 2011
Round 2 bites the dust!!!!
Today I officially completed round 2 of chemo!!! Whoot Whoot!!! I am half way there people....I am half way there! I meant to update my blog all week, but chemo really takes it out of me and I don't really have much energy to do much.
I laid down to take a nap today and all I could do is cry. I cried, not for me, but for my boys, for my Mama, and for my husband. My boys miss me and it breaks my heart that I can't be the Mama that I usually am for them right now. They know we aren't supposed to be living at Mema's all the time...they just know that something isn't right and it makes me so sad. My Mama.....I see the worry and the stress in her eyes....I just wish that my Grandma was here to comfort her the way she has me. I know that just a small touch from her would make my Mama feel better.....it just breaks my heart. My husbands is so ready to have his family back in our own house again...he goes back and forth so much and I see the exhaustion on his face. I just think about them all and I know that it's all my fault and there's nothing I can do to fix it right now. So, when you pray for me....please pray for my family. Cancer doesn't just affect the person who has it....it affects every one that is close to that person.
Speaking of Cancer....what does it look like? When you think of someone that has cancer...do you think of a 33 year old mother, wife, daughter??? Or do you think of the old lady down the street? People....cancer wears many different hats and affects everyone differently. I have been driving myself to treatments this week (and am quite proud of myself)...but when I was driving the other day, I looked at the car next to me and the first thing I thought was I wonder if they have cancer! You never know....I'm sure no one would look at me and think I have it. As a matter of fact....I've been told that I look good and was told the other day that I didn't look like what someone thought I would look like. I guess that's good, but it just made me sad that we probably come in contact with someone with cancer, but we just don't think they look like they have cancer. I really hope that we can all start thinking about the people we come in contact with. You really have no idea what they are going through....your kind words, smile or just an act of kindness could really mean the world to someone.
Well....I think my hair is about to start falling out. I've noticed some hair in the tub when I get out...it's not a lot, but it's definitely there. I thought I would be ready for it to happen, but to be honest...I'm not so sure I want to look like I've got cancer. I know that sounds so shallow, especially after my paragraph above...but let me explain....I like being the one that shows people there's another side to this crap! I mean...I could care less about the hair...it's more the statement than anything. I just keep thinking of all the little children that go through this....can you imagine...your child having cancer? I'm sure my Mama never thought she'd say she would understand what those parents go through and even though I'm 33...I'm still my Mama's baby!
I pray that you all are doing great and will try to keep you updated a little better!!
Love to you all!!!
I laid down to take a nap today and all I could do is cry. I cried, not for me, but for my boys, for my Mama, and for my husband. My boys miss me and it breaks my heart that I can't be the Mama that I usually am for them right now. They know we aren't supposed to be living at Mema's all the time...they just know that something isn't right and it makes me so sad. My Mama.....I see the worry and the stress in her eyes....I just wish that my Grandma was here to comfort her the way she has me. I know that just a small touch from her would make my Mama feel better.....it just breaks my heart. My husbands is so ready to have his family back in our own house again...he goes back and forth so much and I see the exhaustion on his face. I just think about them all and I know that it's all my fault and there's nothing I can do to fix it right now. So, when you pray for me....please pray for my family. Cancer doesn't just affect the person who has it....it affects every one that is close to that person.
Speaking of Cancer....what does it look like? When you think of someone that has cancer...do you think of a 33 year old mother, wife, daughter??? Or do you think of the old lady down the street? People....cancer wears many different hats and affects everyone differently. I have been driving myself to treatments this week (and am quite proud of myself)...but when I was driving the other day, I looked at the car next to me and the first thing I thought was I wonder if they have cancer! You never know....I'm sure no one would look at me and think I have it. As a matter of fact....I've been told that I look good and was told the other day that I didn't look like what someone thought I would look like. I guess that's good, but it just made me sad that we probably come in contact with someone with cancer, but we just don't think they look like they have cancer. I really hope that we can all start thinking about the people we come in contact with. You really have no idea what they are going through....your kind words, smile or just an act of kindness could really mean the world to someone.
Well....I think my hair is about to start falling out. I've noticed some hair in the tub when I get out...it's not a lot, but it's definitely there. I thought I would be ready for it to happen, but to be honest...I'm not so sure I want to look like I've got cancer. I know that sounds so shallow, especially after my paragraph above...but let me explain....I like being the one that shows people there's another side to this crap! I mean...I could care less about the hair...it's more the statement than anything. I just keep thinking of all the little children that go through this....can you imagine...your child having cancer? I'm sure my Mama never thought she'd say she would understand what those parents go through and even though I'm 33...I'm still my Mama's baby!
I pray that you all are doing great and will try to keep you updated a little better!!
Love to you all!!!
Saturday, December 3, 2011
More Good Days!!!
Praise God for these good days.....I am loving them!!! Yesterday me and Mama went to The French Market and then to Rite Aide....probably not much to y'all, but it made me feel normal for a little bit. I am just so afraid that I'm going to get sick. I can't be around crowds of people right now and I'm not supposed to be hugging everyone, but when people see me....they wanna hug me! What am I supposed to do? I'm a huggy person! :) I think it's funny when people see me and say "well, you look good!" What do they expect me to look like? I guess when you have cancer there's a certain "look" you're supposed to have. hahahahahaha! My hair hasn't started falling out yet and the more I think about it falling out....it bothers me a little. It hasn't bothered me at all until the past couple of days, but it could be worse...it's just hair, right?
We are going to put up the Christmas tree at Mama and Daddy's tonight. This is going to be fun!!! I love Christmas time, but to be honest....this year is kinda yucky! I am just so thankful that I will be starting my second round of chemo Monday and then will be on the 2 week break during Christmas. I am really tired of all of this....I just can't think about it sometimes. I am so ready for my life to get back to normal. I am almost half way done though, so I am thankful for that.
You know....I've always donated things to people and I've done the thing where you buy Christmas presents for other people...I never thought in a million years that I would be on the receiving end of it. It's quite humbling, but it also makes me so thankful to be surrounded by such loving people that care about my boys and my family. Thank God Barry and I had already started our Christmas shopping before all of this started. But....we only got started on Sam (he is 3) and Andrew (he is 9 months)....I had to get Joey's Christmas list before I could start on him. Joey is not really talking to me right now....as most of you know, Joey moved to North Carolina in August to live with his dad. He is feeling guilty for not being here right now....he is 11 and is just going through a bunch of stuff. Bless his little heart. Y'all be in prayer for him as well. BUT....I am kinda glad he's not here to see all this that I'm going through.....I miss him so much.
Anyway....gotta go feed my babies! Love to you all and thank you all for being there for me and praying for me. I appreciate you all so very much.
We are going to put up the Christmas tree at Mama and Daddy's tonight. This is going to be fun!!! I love Christmas time, but to be honest....this year is kinda yucky! I am just so thankful that I will be starting my second round of chemo Monday and then will be on the 2 week break during Christmas. I am really tired of all of this....I just can't think about it sometimes. I am so ready for my life to get back to normal. I am almost half way done though, so I am thankful for that.
You know....I've always donated things to people and I've done the thing where you buy Christmas presents for other people...I never thought in a million years that I would be on the receiving end of it. It's quite humbling, but it also makes me so thankful to be surrounded by such loving people that care about my boys and my family. Thank God Barry and I had already started our Christmas shopping before all of this started. But....we only got started on Sam (he is 3) and Andrew (he is 9 months)....I had to get Joey's Christmas list before I could start on him. Joey is not really talking to me right now....as most of you know, Joey moved to North Carolina in August to live with his dad. He is feeling guilty for not being here right now....he is 11 and is just going through a bunch of stuff. Bless his little heart. Y'all be in prayer for him as well. BUT....I am kinda glad he's not here to see all this that I'm going through.....I miss him so much.
Anyway....gotta go feed my babies! Love to you all and thank you all for being there for me and praying for me. I appreciate you all so very much.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Another Day.....Another Blog
Hi! I hope everyone is doing awesome today!!! I have been doing great...I love these good days! :)
So....my last blog I stated that people proving themselves is different than just the words they say (as far as being there for you)....I just want to throw this out there. I wasn't talking about anyone not being there for me....I was mainly giving my cousin Jessica a little shout out for everything that she has done for me. My best friend texted me and said she was in tears because she felt like she hasn't been there for me like she should. BUT.....what I told her is that there is really nothing anyone can do and what I do need is words of encouragement and prayers and that is something I KNOW without a doubt that she is doing for me. I appreciate each and every one of you that has reached out to me....whether it be a little fb message or post on my page, a card, a text, a gift, food, prayers.....whatever it is that you have done...I appreciate it with all of my heart. My Mama and I were talking earlier and she said, "Jayme this has really taught me to reach out to people, even if we don't really know them or even if they aren't in our close circle...people are reaching out to you and it has taught me to not get so busy that I forget to do the same for other people." All of this hasn't just been a lesson for me, but I know other people are learning lessons too....especially my family! We are all dumbfounded at the outpouring of love to us right now. It gets me all teary eyed!!!!! OK...OK....enough sappy stuff....sometimes I feel like if I start crying, it will be days before I stop. :)
Y'all I really don't feel like I'm dong anything special by blogging or in the way I'm handling this....but obviously everyone else thinks I am. People are wanting to meet me...people are sending me messages that I don't even know....it's amazing how God is using me and my situation to reach people that I normally would never have any contact with what-so-ever! I've prayed for God to use me in mighty ways and recently I have prayed for God to show me how to be a witness to others....I kinda wish He had shown me without the whole cancer thing, but I am learning that we just use what we have and that's good enough for God. I don't have any special talents....I can't sing....I can't dance....I am not good with public speaking....but what do I have? I have cancer and I have a story, so as long as I tell my story and praise God through this...I am being a witness, right? I think so! :)
So...I guess what I'm trying to say is....it doesn't matter if you are having a bad hair day or if your kids are getting on your nervers....what matters is your attitude! Have an attitude of gratitude. Smile at someone....you never know what they are going through!
One thing that I am struggling with is my weight right now. As most of you know, I have always been very thin. Now....I have been losing weight....which is NOT good for me. I only weigh 110 now and everyone is trying to shovel food down my throat. I'm not trying to lose weight....I lost most of it when I was in the hospital and then as soon as I came back they hook me up to chemo. I am gotten my appetite back now...but I start my second round of chemo on Monday. Chemo....is not fun at all....I would take radiation any day over chemo! It makes you hurt all over, you can't taste food and then you're not hungry. I just have to figure out how to not lose any more weight. I am NOT looking forward to Monday to say the least. I go on Friday to get my blood work done and meet with the doctor. I am praying that the doctor will do something about my siatic nerve pain....this junk is for the birds. I do NOT like complaining and I do NOT like hurting (who does?)....but seriously...it hurts!
I have gotten so many special surprises lately and it makes me smile! So....thank you all for my special surprises. I've gotten teal sweat pants, a teal jacket, some books, candles, a scarf, a hat, lots and lots of cards.....all kinds of goodies. God will bless you people for loving me the way that you have! Y'all make my good days that much better and my bad days easier to deal with! You will never understand how truely grateful I am.
Oh and by the way.....I have 40 followers on my blog and my blog has been view 2,052 times!!! How awesome is that??? Little ol' Jayme has a fan club! Whooot Whoooot!!!! Go Jayme! Hahahaha!
"Blessed is the one who digs a well from which another may draw faith!"
So....my last blog I stated that people proving themselves is different than just the words they say (as far as being there for you)....I just want to throw this out there. I wasn't talking about anyone not being there for me....I was mainly giving my cousin Jessica a little shout out for everything that she has done for me. My best friend texted me and said she was in tears because she felt like she hasn't been there for me like she should. BUT.....what I told her is that there is really nothing anyone can do and what I do need is words of encouragement and prayers and that is something I KNOW without a doubt that she is doing for me. I appreciate each and every one of you that has reached out to me....whether it be a little fb message or post on my page, a card, a text, a gift, food, prayers.....whatever it is that you have done...I appreciate it with all of my heart. My Mama and I were talking earlier and she said, "Jayme this has really taught me to reach out to people, even if we don't really know them or even if they aren't in our close circle...people are reaching out to you and it has taught me to not get so busy that I forget to do the same for other people." All of this hasn't just been a lesson for me, but I know other people are learning lessons too....especially my family! We are all dumbfounded at the outpouring of love to us right now. It gets me all teary eyed!!!!! OK...OK....enough sappy stuff....sometimes I feel like if I start crying, it will be days before I stop. :)
Y'all I really don't feel like I'm dong anything special by blogging or in the way I'm handling this....but obviously everyone else thinks I am. People are wanting to meet me...people are sending me messages that I don't even know....it's amazing how God is using me and my situation to reach people that I normally would never have any contact with what-so-ever! I've prayed for God to use me in mighty ways and recently I have prayed for God to show me how to be a witness to others....I kinda wish He had shown me without the whole cancer thing, but I am learning that we just use what we have and that's good enough for God. I don't have any special talents....I can't sing....I can't dance....I am not good with public speaking....but what do I have? I have cancer and I have a story, so as long as I tell my story and praise God through this...I am being a witness, right? I think so! :)
So...I guess what I'm trying to say is....it doesn't matter if you are having a bad hair day or if your kids are getting on your nervers....what matters is your attitude! Have an attitude of gratitude. Smile at someone....you never know what they are going through!
One thing that I am struggling with is my weight right now. As most of you know, I have always been very thin. Now....I have been losing weight....which is NOT good for me. I only weigh 110 now and everyone is trying to shovel food down my throat. I'm not trying to lose weight....I lost most of it when I was in the hospital and then as soon as I came back they hook me up to chemo. I am gotten my appetite back now...but I start my second round of chemo on Monday. Chemo....is not fun at all....I would take radiation any day over chemo! It makes you hurt all over, you can't taste food and then you're not hungry. I just have to figure out how to not lose any more weight. I am NOT looking forward to Monday to say the least. I go on Friday to get my blood work done and meet with the doctor. I am praying that the doctor will do something about my siatic nerve pain....this junk is for the birds. I do NOT like complaining and I do NOT like hurting (who does?)....but seriously...it hurts!
I have gotten so many special surprises lately and it makes me smile! So....thank you all for my special surprises. I've gotten teal sweat pants, a teal jacket, some books, candles, a scarf, a hat, lots and lots of cards.....all kinds of goodies. God will bless you people for loving me the way that you have! Y'all make my good days that much better and my bad days easier to deal with! You will never understand how truely grateful I am.
Oh and by the way.....I have 40 followers on my blog and my blog has been view 2,052 times!!! How awesome is that??? Little ol' Jayme has a fan club! Whooot Whoooot!!!! Go Jayme! Hahahaha!
"Blessed is the one who digs a well from which another may draw faith!"
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Life has been grand!
What a Thanksgiving holiday! So much food and family......it got to be pretty hectic. I would've updated sooner, but my hunny took my iPad hostage over the holiday! :) This week has been going pretty good....actually been feeling like getting up and doing stuff.....although, I have to admit that I've over done it a tad bit today.
The pity party went GREAT! My cousin, Jessica, has really outdone herself. She has designed tshirts, created a meal train and did the pity party! I have no idea what I would do without her. It's times like this when you really appreciate the kindness and love of others! It's easy for people to say that they will be there for you no matter what....it's another thing for them to prove themselves!
We have been working on getting our things set up in the new house and we are staying there tonight for the first time....but.....I miss my Mama. We are gonna be back at mama and daddy's tomorrow night. Barry can stay out here by himself...but I want my Mama! I don't think my body was ready to have the boys all day alone. I am hurting really bad tonight. I wish I could go slap the doctor that stuck the needle in my sciatic nerve....talk about pain...OMGoodness! I have been a tad emotional today and have no idea why. I just want to sit down and cry about everything. *sigh*. I've done 11 radiation treatments now and I have 31 left. Im not sure about the chemo yet. I go for my second round of chemo on Monday! I still can't believe that I am dong radiation and chemo.....it still seems like it's happening to someone else. Does that make sense?
I am LOVING my super short hair cut! It literally takes me 2 minutes to fix my hair and hardly
any shampoo. Y'all short haired folks had the right idea! Anyway....going to go lay on the heating pad for a little bit.
Love to you all and thank you so much for the kindness you have shown to my family! :)
The pity party went GREAT! My cousin, Jessica, has really outdone herself. She has designed tshirts, created a meal train and did the pity party! I have no idea what I would do without her. It's times like this when you really appreciate the kindness and love of others! It's easy for people to say that they will be there for you no matter what....it's another thing for them to prove themselves!
We have been working on getting our things set up in the new house and we are staying there tonight for the first time....but.....I miss my Mama. We are gonna be back at mama and daddy's tomorrow night. Barry can stay out here by himself...but I want my Mama! I don't think my body was ready to have the boys all day alone. I am hurting really bad tonight. I wish I could go slap the doctor that stuck the needle in my sciatic nerve....talk about pain...OMGoodness! I have been a tad emotional today and have no idea why. I just want to sit down and cry about everything. *sigh*. I've done 11 radiation treatments now and I have 31 left. Im not sure about the chemo yet. I go for my second round of chemo on Monday! I still can't believe that I am dong radiation and chemo.....it still seems like it's happening to someone else. Does that make sense?
I am LOVING my super short hair cut! It literally takes me 2 minutes to fix my hair and hardly
any shampoo. Y'all short haired folks had the right idea! Anyway....going to go lay on the heating pad for a little bit.
Love to you all and thank you so much for the kindness you have shown to my family! :)
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
FYI....Radiation gives you the poopsies!!!!
Hello everyone!!! I am feeling "normal" at this very moment...PRAISE GOD!!! My days have been more like a roller coaster than a normal day. I will feel really good for a few hours and then feel really bad. BUT....I have more good moments than bad ones!!!
Chemo makes me very, very tired and radiation gives me the poopsies....so I want to just lay around and stinky on myself! Hahaha...just kiddin'! That one really made me giggle! How many of y'all just said, "I can't believe she just said that!!!" HILARIOUS!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and it really doesn't seem like the holidays are here. I sure am ready for next Thanksgiving! :) I am so thankful for my family...my friends too, but my family is extraordinary! I am so blessed to have been born into the family I have. People keep telling me that I'm an inspiration to them and I really just don't see it. I wasn't raised to wallow in self pity or ask why me...I was told to make the best of what you have and my grandma used to tell us that God won't give you more than you can handle. I honestly believe that things happen for a reason and there is a reason behind this. Did God give me cancer? No...God doesn't do bad things to us, but He does allow bad things to happen...and I think He does that to teach us a lesson or maybe it's for someone else. I don't know and I don't care....all I know is that I am trying to learn what God is teaching in this situation. Maybe it's not for me.....maybe it's all the lives I am touching just by telling my story. Just think....how many of you have told someone about me? That just gives me chill bumps to think about how many people have been touched by my story....to me, it's just a bump in the road.
Kris (my big sister) will be here Friday....I am so ready to see my big sister! It brings tears to my eyes knowing that I will get to see her....she is such a great big sister to me and I love her dearly. Beth (other big sister) is going to be here Friday too...I haven't see her in a while and am ready to see her too!!! I wish so much that Jennifer (my twin) was going to be here....thinking about her makes me cry too! I LOVE MY SISTAS!!!!
Anyway.....I just wanted to give a little update, although nothing has changed! Love to you all and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!
"Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun." Psalm 37:5&6
Chemo makes me very, very tired and radiation gives me the poopsies....so I want to just lay around and stinky on myself! Hahaha...just kiddin'! That one really made me giggle! How many of y'all just said, "I can't believe she just said that!!!" HILARIOUS!
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and it really doesn't seem like the holidays are here. I sure am ready for next Thanksgiving! :) I am so thankful for my family...my friends too, but my family is extraordinary! I am so blessed to have been born into the family I have. People keep telling me that I'm an inspiration to them and I really just don't see it. I wasn't raised to wallow in self pity or ask why me...I was told to make the best of what you have and my grandma used to tell us that God won't give you more than you can handle. I honestly believe that things happen for a reason and there is a reason behind this. Did God give me cancer? No...God doesn't do bad things to us, but He does allow bad things to happen...and I think He does that to teach us a lesson or maybe it's for someone else. I don't know and I don't care....all I know is that I am trying to learn what God is teaching in this situation. Maybe it's not for me.....maybe it's all the lives I am touching just by telling my story. Just think....how many of you have told someone about me? That just gives me chill bumps to think about how many people have been touched by my story....to me, it's just a bump in the road.
Kris (my big sister) will be here Friday....I am so ready to see my big sister! It brings tears to my eyes knowing that I will get to see her....she is such a great big sister to me and I love her dearly. Beth (other big sister) is going to be here Friday too...I haven't see her in a while and am ready to see her too!!! I wish so much that Jennifer (my twin) was going to be here....thinking about her makes me cry too! I LOVE MY SISTAS!!!!
Anyway.....I just wanted to give a little update, although nothing has changed! Love to you all and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!
"Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun." Psalm 37:5&6
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Week 1 is OVER!!!!!
I am so sorry that it has taken me this long to get back on here....when they say chemo and radiation are going to make you exhausted....that's an understatement! BOY OH BOY.....I have been beyond exhausted. You know when you're in labor and as soon as you push that last push and out pops baby....then you're body just shuts down and you sleep....that's what I have felt like. Having chemo pumping in your veins 24 hours a day for 4 and a half days....just pure craziness. I went and got the pump taken off on Friday ( I get a two week break from that) so hopefully I will start feeling somewhat normal again before I have to start again. I will continue on with the radiation for 6 weeks....just taking a break on the weakened!
Y'all, my poor husband is definitely fulfilling the in "sickness and health" vow to me right now. I do radiation every day at 8:30 and he takes me then brings me back to my parents house and then turns right back around and goes to Tifton or wherever he has to go that day....but he doesn't start his day until he's already got me back home. He has been so sweet and considerate and he says the absolute sweetest things about me on Facebook. I have been pretty good holding myself together, but that man knows his sweet words get me every time! :)
My hair hasn't started falling out yet....I hate waiting for it to happen! I know it's gonna happen....but come on already! Guess it's like telling everyone your pregnant, no one really believes you until you start wearing maternity clothes!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Sorry, that really made me laugh.
We have been so overwhelmed by the kindess of our friends, family and even strangers so far....the cards, the messages, the food (good gosh, some of y'all can cook!!!)....My God has blessed me with some downright amazing people in my life and I thank Him so much for that. We are staying with my parents right now...there is absolutely no way I could've been able to take care of my boys alone while Barry went to work. We are managing just fine. I feel sorry for my Mama....Andrew used to be a Mama's baby, now if he even hears her voice, he crawls with his head down crying for her!!!
ok....Barry has stopped snoring at this moment, so I'm going to try to lay down and go to sleep!
Love to you all!!!
Y'all, my poor husband is definitely fulfilling the in "sickness and health" vow to me right now. I do radiation every day at 8:30 and he takes me then brings me back to my parents house and then turns right back around and goes to Tifton or wherever he has to go that day....but he doesn't start his day until he's already got me back home. He has been so sweet and considerate and he says the absolute sweetest things about me on Facebook. I have been pretty good holding myself together, but that man knows his sweet words get me every time! :)
My hair hasn't started falling out yet....I hate waiting for it to happen! I know it's gonna happen....but come on already! Guess it's like telling everyone your pregnant, no one really believes you until you start wearing maternity clothes!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Sorry, that really made me laugh.
We have been so overwhelmed by the kindess of our friends, family and even strangers so far....the cards, the messages, the food (good gosh, some of y'all can cook!!!)....My God has blessed me with some downright amazing people in my life and I thank Him so much for that. We are staying with my parents right now...there is absolutely no way I could've been able to take care of my boys alone while Barry went to work. We are managing just fine. I feel sorry for my Mama....Andrew used to be a Mama's baby, now if he even hears her voice, he crawls with his head down crying for her!!!
ok....Barry has stopped snoring at this moment, so I'm going to try to lay down and go to sleep!
Love to you all!!!
Sunday, November 13, 2011
On the way home!!!!! WHOOOOHOOOO!
I am sitting in the back seat on the way home from Atlanta! I am so ready to see my babies....I am hurting something fierce though. They did drain the cyst, so that pain is gone...but when they went in to do the biopsy of the mass, they hit my siatic nerve and that ain't nothing to play with! I am so tired and grouchy! We are in Macon now and I think I'm gonna take a nap the rest of the way home.
Tomorrow at 8:30, I start chemo!!! Dr. Boveri (guy in Atlanta) seems to think that I will handle it just fine. The trip to Saint Jospeh's Hospital was really not that bad...I had a beautiful view of the city and the trees were changing colors. It was real nice.
Just wanted to give y'all a little update. Blogging and pain pills may prove to be somewhat hilarious!!!! :)
Love to you all!
Tomorrow at 8:30, I start chemo!!! Dr. Boveri (guy in Atlanta) seems to think that I will handle it just fine. The trip to Saint Jospeh's Hospital was really not that bad...I had a beautiful view of the city and the trees were changing colors. It was real nice.
Just wanted to give y'all a little update. Blogging and pain pills may prove to be somewhat hilarious!!!! :)
Love to you all!
Friday, November 11, 2011
Been a Couple of days!
Sorry I haven't updated the past few days. I am in the hospital! I know...just great!
What happened:
Tuesday, I had a slight headache....around lunch time, I bent over to pick Andrew up off of the floor and I thought I had like a sour burp...it was gross. After that, I started throwing up and couldn't keep anything down. At 4 am Wednesday morning, Barry told me that he was going to take me to the ER....well, they gave me fluids and something for nausea. We got home after lunch. Well, once I got home, I started getting sick again. So...at 8pm Wednesday night, Barry took me back the the ER. The doctor there was wonderful and did an X-ray of my belly...in the X-ray, he found that I had a slight blockage in my intestines and that is what has been making me sick....well, not just that, but the cyst that I've had on my right ovary for a while now has grown to be as big as the size of a grapefruit....which is extremely painful! So....I am now in Atlanta at Saint Joseph's hospital. They are going to do a CT guided biopsy of my cancer mass and then they are going to take care of the cyst on my ovary. Once they get rid of the cyst, they are thinking it will fix my intestines. So....that's pretty much all I know right now.
I am doing good.....just so tired! I do NOT think it is pure coincidence that I found out all this stuff 4 days before I am scheduled to start chemo and radiation. God is working on me!!! :) I have been praying for answers to my stomach and back pain....here's my answer! I am actually excited to get all of this fixed. I will try to get on here and update as much as I can while I am here!
Love to you all!
What happened:
Tuesday, I had a slight headache....around lunch time, I bent over to pick Andrew up off of the floor and I thought I had like a sour burp...it was gross. After that, I started throwing up and couldn't keep anything down. At 4 am Wednesday morning, Barry told me that he was going to take me to the ER....well, they gave me fluids and something for nausea. We got home after lunch. Well, once I got home, I started getting sick again. So...at 8pm Wednesday night, Barry took me back the the ER. The doctor there was wonderful and did an X-ray of my belly...in the X-ray, he found that I had a slight blockage in my intestines and that is what has been making me sick....well, not just that, but the cyst that I've had on my right ovary for a while now has grown to be as big as the size of a grapefruit....which is extremely painful! So....I am now in Atlanta at Saint Joseph's hospital. They are going to do a CT guided biopsy of my cancer mass and then they are going to take care of the cyst on my ovary. Once they get rid of the cyst, they are thinking it will fix my intestines. So....that's pretty much all I know right now.
I am doing good.....just so tired! I do NOT think it is pure coincidence that I found out all this stuff 4 days before I am scheduled to start chemo and radiation. God is working on me!!! :) I have been praying for answers to my stomach and back pain....here's my answer! I am actually excited to get all of this fixed. I will try to get on here and update as much as I can while I am here!
Love to you all!
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
What a day!!!!
Today I have felt wonderful!!!! Felt like Jayme for the first time in a long time and it was GREAT!! I cleaned the carpet and everything....What a blessing it was! Thank the Lord for good days. Jessica was supposed to cut my hair off today, but she wasn't feeling very good...so we will do it hopefully tomorrow! :)
My Mama and Daddy are extremely worried about me....makes me really sad to see them overwhelmed, stressed and sad because of me. Please pray especially for them to have peace in their hearts as we go down this road. If you see my Mama out somewhere, just give her a big hug!!!
I have my education with the chemo dr on Wednesday and then Thursday morning I go meet with the radiation dr to get marked and scanned! How magnificient would it be for them to scan me and not find ANYTHING! We do serve a God of healing and is in the miracle business, so it could happen!!!!!
Someone bought and donated a pillow top mattress with a frame to put downstairs for me, an air purifier and gave us a gas card to get back and forth to appointments! I pray that whoever the person is gets a huge blessing for doing something so wonderful for us! I love how God uses people.
6 more days...I can't sit here and lie and say that I'm not nervous or anxious, but I do know that I will handle it with ease. I am confident....I'm sure that I'm going to have some bad days, but I pray there will be a ton more good days than bad days! I am trying to stay positive, and it helps having so many positive people around me. I am so blessed by the support group I have! My entire community is rallying behind me and my family. It's times like this that I am thankful to be from a small town that cares about people!
Love to you all!!
"Don't be afraid. I am with you. Don't tremble with fear. I am you God. I will make you strong, as I protect you with my arm and give you victories." Isaiah 41:10
My Mama and Daddy are extremely worried about me....makes me really sad to see them overwhelmed, stressed and sad because of me. Please pray especially for them to have peace in their hearts as we go down this road. If you see my Mama out somewhere, just give her a big hug!!!
I have my education with the chemo dr on Wednesday and then Thursday morning I go meet with the radiation dr to get marked and scanned! How magnificient would it be for them to scan me and not find ANYTHING! We do serve a God of healing and is in the miracle business, so it could happen!!!!!
Someone bought and donated a pillow top mattress with a frame to put downstairs for me, an air purifier and gave us a gas card to get back and forth to appointments! I pray that whoever the person is gets a huge blessing for doing something so wonderful for us! I love how God uses people.
6 more days...I can't sit here and lie and say that I'm not nervous or anxious, but I do know that I will handle it with ease. I am confident....I'm sure that I'm going to have some bad days, but I pray there will be a ton more good days than bad days! I am trying to stay positive, and it helps having so many positive people around me. I am so blessed by the support group I have! My entire community is rallying behind me and my family. It's times like this that I am thankful to be from a small town that cares about people!
Love to you all!!
"Don't be afraid. I am with you. Don't tremble with fear. I am you God. I will make you strong, as I protect you with my arm and give you victories." Isaiah 41:10
Relaxing Weekend!!!
I didn't get on my computer at all this weekend...I rested!!! I am feeling much better today. Even went to church yesterday (in sweats, but I went)!!! I'm not really liking being alone right now...my mind tends to wander around all the "what ifs". What if I die? What will happen to my boys? What about my parents, sisters and husband??? I think it's only normal to think about stuff like that...but as soon as a thought like the goes through my head. I bow my head and pray for God to give me his peace! I am claiming life and I know there are power in your words and thoughts! It really doesn't matter what you're going through...it may not be cancer, but EVERYONE is fighting some sort of battle! Just got to keep your thoughts positive!
Well...Jessica is going to come over today and cut my hair really short. Then, I will shave it when it starts to fall out. *sigh* This still all feels so surreal....but you know in church yesterday, they sang a song about letting your light shine. I'm not going to go into hiding when my head is bald...I am GOING TO LET MY LIGHT SHINE!!! I could curl up in bed (and sometimes I feel like it), but how would God be able to shine through me if I'm covered with covers and never leave the house? I want to be an example of faith, love and courage! That is my prayer!!! I do get tired of talking about it sometimes, but then other times I can't talk about it enough....I guess it just needs to come out sometimes! :)
I am extremely nervous about starting the treatment....just ready to get started and see how my body is going to handle it! 7 more days people!!!! 7 more days!!! :) I guess it's kinda like having a baby...you prepare yourself for 9 months to have a baby, but when it comes down to it....you're not ready, it's just something that's going to happen whether you want it to or not! :)I just pray that I handle the treatment great so my family will still be able to enjoy the holidays.
I didn't realize just how many people were going to be reading my blog...it's so crazy how many people are behind me and being supportive! I LOVE IT!!!
Love to you all!
Well...Jessica is going to come over today and cut my hair really short. Then, I will shave it when it starts to fall out. *sigh* This still all feels so surreal....but you know in church yesterday, they sang a song about letting your light shine. I'm not going to go into hiding when my head is bald...I am GOING TO LET MY LIGHT SHINE!!! I could curl up in bed (and sometimes I feel like it), but how would God be able to shine through me if I'm covered with covers and never leave the house? I want to be an example of faith, love and courage! That is my prayer!!! I do get tired of talking about it sometimes, but then other times I can't talk about it enough....I guess it just needs to come out sometimes! :)
I am extremely nervous about starting the treatment....just ready to get started and see how my body is going to handle it! 7 more days people!!!! 7 more days!!! :) I guess it's kinda like having a baby...you prepare yourself for 9 months to have a baby, but when it comes down to it....you're not ready, it's just something that's going to happen whether you want it to or not! :)I just pray that I handle the treatment great so my family will still be able to enjoy the holidays.
I didn't realize just how many people were going to be reading my blog...it's so crazy how many people are behind me and being supportive! I LOVE IT!!!
Love to you all!
Friday, November 4, 2011
Ready or Not Here I Come!!!
So...met with the chemo doctor today. I start chemo on the 14th. *sigh* I will have to have some sort of education class where they will tell me all about what I'm about to go through. I do that on Wednesday! Then...when they did my port and my kidney stint, they weren't able to biopsy anything, so I may have to go to Albany to have a biopsy done using a ct scan! I will find that out on Monday. The doctor said I could lose my hair anywhere from 2 days to weeks after my first chemo treatment. I am now a little nervous and scared. I'm afraid I'm going to be sick the entire time and not be able to take care of my little boys. BUT...the doctor and nurses assure me that they will give me meds to take care of the side affects. I'm just a little overwhelmed....feeling kinda sad and irritable....not to mention still sore!!!
I told Sam that I was going to have to start taking some medicine and it was going to make my hair fall out....he cried and said "but I like to play with your hair mommy!" So...I promised him that I would shave my head and keep it for him to play with.
This is a very emotional process....although I'm fine with it and I know that the outcome will be great...it's almost surreal, I guess. I thought this was behind me and now I've got to deal with it all over again. I'm also so worried about my mama and daddy and my sisters...I don't want them to worry about me because I know I will be fine....and I don't want them to cry anymore for me! It just makes me sad.
We are going to have a pity party and a head shaving party at the same time....I think this is hilarious!!! I might as well embrace it!!! :) I will have to take some pictures so everyone can be part of it! Everyone is buying tshirts to show their support for me....I think that is awesome!!! I hope everyone takes pictures in their shirts so I can see them.
Hanging in the Oncology Center was this sign:
What Cancer Can't Do:
It can't prevent love
It can't conquer the spirit
It can't silence courage
It can't take away memories
It can't weaken faith
It can't defeat hope
When I was leaving my appointment today, I overheard the nurses saying "We're gonna have fun with that one!" I love it!!! I pray that I learn what God is using this to teach me...maybe it's not to stare at someone with a bald head....come on, we all know we're guilty of this one!!!! Maybe God is using me to show people what faith, courage and hope look like. I'm not sure, but whatever it is....I pray it happens!!!
Love to each of you!!!
I told Sam that I was going to have to start taking some medicine and it was going to make my hair fall out....he cried and said "but I like to play with your hair mommy!" So...I promised him that I would shave my head and keep it for him to play with.
This is a very emotional process....although I'm fine with it and I know that the outcome will be great...it's almost surreal, I guess. I thought this was behind me and now I've got to deal with it all over again. I'm also so worried about my mama and daddy and my sisters...I don't want them to worry about me because I know I will be fine....and I don't want them to cry anymore for me! It just makes me sad.
We are going to have a pity party and a head shaving party at the same time....I think this is hilarious!!! I might as well embrace it!!! :) I will have to take some pictures so everyone can be part of it! Everyone is buying tshirts to show their support for me....I think that is awesome!!! I hope everyone takes pictures in their shirts so I can see them.
Hanging in the Oncology Center was this sign:
What Cancer Can't Do:
It can't prevent love
It can't conquer the spirit
It can't silence courage
It can't take away memories
It can't weaken faith
It can't defeat hope
When I was leaving my appointment today, I overheard the nurses saying "We're gonna have fun with that one!" I love it!!! I pray that I learn what God is using this to teach me...maybe it's not to stare at someone with a bald head....come on, we all know we're guilty of this one!!!! Maybe God is using me to show people what faith, courage and hope look like. I'm not sure, but whatever it is....I pray it happens!!!
Love to each of you!!!
Thursday, November 3, 2011
OH MY LORD!!!!!!
Holy moly....I am so stinkin' sore today!!! My neck and my chest hurt sooooo bad. My skin just feels cut up and stretched out! :) And I have been so tired today....I have done absolutely NOTHING and I'm already sitting in my bed at 7:45! Poor, Poor me!! I do have an idea though...and it's a great idea (well, I think it is anyway)....everyone keeps telling me how sorry they are, blah, blah, blah.....so I'm thinking about throwing myself a pity party!!! How hilarious would that be??? It makes me giggle just thinking about it.
I have the absolute best family in the world! Jessica (my cousin) came this morning when Barry left and stayed with me until my Mama got here. Mama cleaned and helped with Andrew....I can't hold him on my right side at all....which I am NOT happy about! I love to hold my babies! Aunt Donna brought us some delicious chicken n' dumplins (MY FAVORITE)....I may milk this a little longer than everyone may want me too!!! Hahahahaha! I always feel so bad when people help me!
I'm really excited about some tshirts Jessica designed for me....she's already got orders for almost 100 shirts! It means so much to me that people are rallying around us....it really touches my heart!
I've got to tell y'all though....I am falling in love with Barry over and over and over again. He is absolutely the sweetest and most caring man. Last night he was snoring and I touched him (well, more like kicked him) and he thought something was wrong and jumped straight out of bed and said "Jayme, what's wrong?"...I felt horrible for telling him that it was just him snoring!!! He worries so much about me, I see it on his face. Which makes me worry about him! I don't want anyone to worry....that's just how I am.
Even in the midst of this storm....I feel so blessed and loved more than ever! I know that sounds crazy, but despite the cancer I am so HAPPY!
Ready to FIGHT!!!!
I'm going to leave you with lyrics from a song that has been keeping my spirits high! Remember, even though things seem hard right now, we still must praise HIM! Everyone has their storms they go through and it helps to stay positive and keep the faith alive!!!
"Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name"
Love to you all!!! :)
I have the absolute best family in the world! Jessica (my cousin) came this morning when Barry left and stayed with me until my Mama got here. Mama cleaned and helped with Andrew....I can't hold him on my right side at all....which I am NOT happy about! I love to hold my babies! Aunt Donna brought us some delicious chicken n' dumplins (MY FAVORITE)....I may milk this a little longer than everyone may want me too!!! Hahahahaha! I always feel so bad when people help me!
I'm really excited about some tshirts Jessica designed for me....she's already got orders for almost 100 shirts! It means so much to me that people are rallying around us....it really touches my heart!
I've got to tell y'all though....I am falling in love with Barry over and over and over again. He is absolutely the sweetest and most caring man. Last night he was snoring and I touched him (well, more like kicked him) and he thought something was wrong and jumped straight out of bed and said "Jayme, what's wrong?"...I felt horrible for telling him that it was just him snoring!!! He worries so much about me, I see it on his face. Which makes me worry about him! I don't want anyone to worry....that's just how I am.
Even in the midst of this storm....I feel so blessed and loved more than ever! I know that sounds crazy, but despite the cancer I am so HAPPY!
Ready to FIGHT!!!!
I'm going to leave you with lyrics from a song that has been keeping my spirits high! Remember, even though things seem hard right now, we still must praise HIM! Everyone has their storms they go through and it helps to stay positive and keep the faith alive!!!
"Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name"
Love to you all!!! :)
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Ahhhhhhhh!
Ok....so everyone is talking about this...so I decided that I was going to get all the facts out there, so my Mama can go buy toilet paper without being stopped a million times! :)
First...I was diagnosed with cervical cancer when I was 18 weeks pregnant with Andrew. I had a c-section and radical hysterectomy when I was 34 weeks pregnant. The cancer is where it would be if I still had my cervics...so no, it hasn't spread to my ovaries! Tomorrow I have to go get a stint put in my kidney and a port put in for the chemo. Friday, I go to the chemo doctor to see when I start treatment! That is all I know, that's all my husband knows, that's all my Mama knows, that's all my mother-in-law knows....that's all anyone knows!
I really appreciate your thoughts and prayers. Please understand that me, my family and Barry's family are all a tad bit overwhelmed right now. Y'all are blowing up my phone! Hahahaha! As my mother-in-law stated earlier and it's exactly what I'm doing...I'm getting ready to fight! I really don't want to walk around thinking about this and talking about this all day every day.....I just want things to go on as they always have. Well....except the being bald part!
I have decided that chemo has it's pros....I won't have to fix my hair or shave my legs! Awesome!
Love to each of y'all! :)
First...I was diagnosed with cervical cancer when I was 18 weeks pregnant with Andrew. I had a c-section and radical hysterectomy when I was 34 weeks pregnant. The cancer is where it would be if I still had my cervics...so no, it hasn't spread to my ovaries! Tomorrow I have to go get a stint put in my kidney and a port put in for the chemo. Friday, I go to the chemo doctor to see when I start treatment! That is all I know, that's all my husband knows, that's all my Mama knows, that's all my mother-in-law knows....that's all anyone knows!
I really appreciate your thoughts and prayers. Please understand that me, my family and Barry's family are all a tad bit overwhelmed right now. Y'all are blowing up my phone! Hahahaha! As my mother-in-law stated earlier and it's exactly what I'm doing...I'm getting ready to fight! I really don't want to walk around thinking about this and talking about this all day every day.....I just want things to go on as they always have. Well....except the being bald part!
I have decided that chemo has it's pros....I won't have to fix my hair or shave my legs! Awesome!
Love to each of y'all! :)
Getting the party started!
So....the surgeon's office just called! Tomorrow I will be having surgery to get the stint put in my kidney and also they will be putting in the port for chemo! I have to call the operating room after 2pm to see what time I go in.
I feel sick to my stomach right now....just nerves!! I've been praying for them to go ahead and get started before I chicken out! Hahaha! I am ready for the pain in my back and stomach to go away....I really wish I could wave a magic wand and get this over with! It's gonna be one heck of an 8 weeks. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm gonna be sick and tired. They just don't understand that the day after major surgery I was up walking the halls. I usually don't let things get me down too long. I'm actually looking forward to catching up on some sleep...these boys make me so tired! Fun times are ahead!
Thank you all so much for the prayers, texts, messages and phone calls! Our family is truly blessed to have such wonderful and caring people in our lives! Everyone wear your teal tomorrow....let's get this thing started out in high fashion!
I feel sick to my stomach right now....just nerves!! I've been praying for them to go ahead and get started before I chicken out! Hahaha! I am ready for the pain in my back and stomach to go away....I really wish I could wave a magic wand and get this over with! It's gonna be one heck of an 8 weeks. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm gonna be sick and tired. They just don't understand that the day after major surgery I was up walking the halls. I usually don't let things get me down too long. I'm actually looking forward to catching up on some sleep...these boys make me so tired! Fun times are ahead!
Thank you all so much for the prayers, texts, messages and phone calls! Our family is truly blessed to have such wonderful and caring people in our lives! Everyone wear your teal tomorrow....let's get this thing started out in high fashion!
Monday, October 31, 2011
Appointment with the surgeon!
Why in the world do they schedule an appointment for 2:30....the doctor didn't even come in until 5!!!! I was way beyond irritated!!! They are going to call me tomorrow to let me know when they are going to put the port in. I also have to have a stint put in my left kidney because the mass has blocked the tube to the kidney...which means that the left kidney isn't working very well! They are going to do all this at the same time. I am so nervous about being put to sleep!
I am feeling a little overwhelmed today.....just ready to get this party started! I hate waiting.....and waiting.....and waiting!!!! Don't really have anything insightful to say today...just feeling blah! I'm still in good spirits...not depressed or anything.....just so much going on! And I HATE GOING TO THE DOCTOR!!!!!! :)
I am feeling a little overwhelmed today.....just ready to get this party started! I hate waiting.....and waiting.....and waiting!!!! Don't really have anything insightful to say today...just feeling blah! I'm still in good spirits...not depressed or anything.....just so much going on! And I HATE GOING TO THE DOCTOR!!!!!! :)
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